I Need Some Advice

Back in October of 2008 I finally found my words and wrote a letter to Noah's donor family. While I respected their privacy and feelings and knew I may not hear from them, I have to admit that I hoped that I would.

It's been over a year now and I have never received any correspondance from them. That's okay though. I came close enough to losing a child (and have lost those who I loved very deeply) to understand that it just might be too much. But now, I find myself wanting to reach out to them again. Not only to express my grief for their loss and my gratitude for their gift but also to show them how happy Noah is. How much he enjoys life... the life he has because of their selfless gift.

But I am torn. I don't want to push it on them if they aren't ready. I don't want to cause them more pain.

What should I do? Do you think it would be okay to send another letter or should I wait and see if, in time, they try to contact us? I would really appreciate your thoughts on this.

Knock Knock

Noah's new speech therapy over at the Scottish Rite has been going great! I have been incredibly impressed and I even went it with high expectations. His therapist, Helen, has helped Noah make "talking" fun. He's playing along and trying very hard.

Today he knocked my socks off. Our small exchange went something like this:

Noah: Ma Ma Ma Ma!!

Me: Yeah, Noah?

Noah: Nah Nah (Knock Knock- as he pretended to knock on a door)

Me: (after I overcame the initial shock) Who's there?

Noah: Ta

Me: Ta who?

Noah: Ta Da!! (and he burst out laughing)

He went on to tell me many more made up Knock Knock jokes that he has picked up from Lilly over the past few days. Man, did my heart swell about four times its size.

He didn't say any complete words but he did say knock knock two times in a row (which is a big deal for him) and it was a coherant exchange that made sense and that I could understand. Such a very big deal.

So we spent the rest of the day calling Daddy and Nanny and telling them jokes... which Noah thought was so funny and which made me so very proud.